Tobys cabin

[Jamie D'vart]

"...I think I care. Look, I feel like... people matter, you know? It should be a big deal when someone dies."

[Toby]

"But it's not Jamie. It might be for a few people but if we morn every person that dies we'd never get anything done. Look someone dying is a big deal for a few people for each of us. When I die my pack will morn me my children will greave but the rest of the world won't even notice. That's just how it is"

[Jamie D'vart]

"Oh." Jamie's voice is small, and he looks down at his lap, some of his innocence lost. 

[Toby]

"The fact is we only can impact our small corner of the world. I can't fix everything but this is something I can do I can use my skilled to get rid of a monster the o lay way I can. The world isn't a gentle place and it's not fair. I wish I could give you a kind world but I can't. I can only make a home where you are safe and loved and that's what I intend to do"

[Jamie D'vart]

Jamie hugs his knees. "If I... if my magic takes over and I go bad..."

[Toby]

"You won't. You're too good at heart. But if you did I'd be there to help you use it for good like what I'm doing now."

[Jamie D'vart]

"How can I be sure?" he whispers. 

[Toby]

"Because you make a monster like me want to be better." I say softly kissing  the top of his head

[Jamie D'vart]

"But you can't be better. You keep telling me. And -- and nothing I do will change that. You'll get angry with me for not doing it."

[Toby]

"Not doing what?"

[Jamie D'vart]

"Making you better."

[Toby]

"That's not what I meant by you make me want to be better. You make me want to care about more people, you make me want to be more open with you and those I love, you make me want to be more careful in my hunting, you make me want to live, hell I've even started looking into ways to cut back on hunting so I'll be around more. I know I'll never not be a syncopate and I'll never be able to stop hunting all together, but I want to hunt safer. I want to be more careful in it so I'm here for you and the kids. I want to support you and be an actual partner to you and not just the gruff ashole who fucks you and leaves. I want to build something with you. I know you can't fix me but I hope you can still tolerate me loving you"

[Jamie D'vart]

"I... I don't know. I suppose," he whispers. "I don't... really have anyone else, now. Mom is... different, and I guess she kind of betrayed me? And Dad's never here."

[Toby]

"You have me, you'll always have me" I promis

[Jamie D'vart]

Jamie nods, tears welling up in his eyes. "Alright. I trust you." For now.