Tobys cabin

[Jamie D'vart]

"I don't know. Maybe dinner and a movie?"

[Toby]

"Sure leave it to me I'll plan somthing for us tonight." I smile

[Jamie D'vart]

Jamie sits, transfixed, watching the stories of several women play out across the television screen. When Bruno is introduced, he shrieks, grabbing for Toby's hand, but he soon sheepishly lets go when it turns out to be a big misunderstanding. And when the sad spanish song about butterflies plays, he wipes a single tear out of the corner of his eye. Still, overall, Encanto doesn't speak to him the way it might to another. It's just good cinema. 

[Toby]

It's just a kids movie I remind myself as I watch merabell try over and over to be perfect, to be enough...

....."repent! Tobias James Bearch repent and be saved!"  She screams at a tiny cowering boy, covered in blood and shit being beaten by a big sweaty man..................... "we did nothing wrong! He's an abomination!",,,,,,,,"just born wrong!" ..........   

I blink as the credits roll. Where am I?.... Encanto date night with Jamie.... Shit did he notice? I look over at him he's smiling and I smile back the tension leaving my shoulders it's all ok he's here I'm here and they're dead.

[Jamie D'vart]

"That was good," he says as he stands, stretching. "I liked the song about Bruno."

[Toby]

"Yah... glad you liked it..." I hesitate a moment then ask "hey do you mind if we make a stop on the way home? I just gotta Che somthing real quick."

[Jamie D'vart]

"Uh, sure. Wanna go get milkshakes after?"

[Toby]

I nod a little out of it. We stop and get shakes on the way to the cemitary I park the car "wait here it won't take me more than a minute" I say before getting out and heading over to the plot I look down at the head stone and read the dates 'Susan a Bearch 1960-2006 Andrew a Bearch 1950-2006' I trace the numbers a moment.

"You were shit parents, and shit people, the only good thing I can say about you is You thought me to be a better person and a better parent than eithe of you ever were. Im not perfect, I'm an ass hole and a mess of a man, did things I'm not proud of, but even with all that I'm better than you. I hope you're enjoying hell."

[Jamie D'vart]

Jamie watches out the car window. This is the weirdest date I've ever been on. 

[Toby]

I take a breath and walk back to the car. "Thanks." I say getting in "promis our next date won't end n a graveyard"

[Jamie D'vart]

"I mean, it fits the pattern," he says, shrugging. 

[Toby]

"Sorry about that."

[Jamie D'vart]

"Are you?" asks Jamie, amused. 

[Toby]

"Kinda" I say honestly "you deserve someone less fucked up than me....don't get me wrong I love you and I'm glad we're together, but I can't shake the feeling that you're too good for me to pure."

[Jamie D'vart]

Jamie shrugs. "If you want to be less fucked up, then be less fucked up."