The Amell Legacy: Transgressions

[Carver Amell]

Carver replies by  tugging her closer,  embracing her -- which lets her feel his trembling. "Was that okay?" He whispers. "Was that what sex is like?"

[Bethany]

Beth eagerly hugs him tight against her, resting her head against his shoulder. "Umm. Well. It was... faster than I'm used to? It was just some petting on your breasts and ear, then your pussy but with your underwear in the way? Any idea how long?"

[Carver Amell]

"Um. I'm not sure -- not very long?"

As close as she is, Beth can't help but notice something else she's unused to on her twin -- something pressing upward just a bit as they talk.

[Bethany]

"Just a ballpark is fine. Half hour? An hour? More?" Can't imagine it being much faster than that with so little direct touching. I mean, nipples are great and all but.. She shifts, trying to move whatever is in between them out of the- Oh. Ohhhhh. Huh. Not bad. Wait, that's my brother. Clearing her throat, she steps back, smiling up at him to make sure he doesn't think she's upset with him.

[Carver Amell]

"Um, maybe half an hour?" he posits. "That was the shortest encounter, I think."

[Bethany]

"Kind of fast, yeah..." Beth murmurs, then shrugs. "You might just be really sensitive. How long does it take now?" she asks curiously.

[Carver Amell]

"Um," he says, blushing. "I haven't... had sex with someone since, um, since Dau."

[Bethany]

"Sure, I figured, but haven't you-" Beth cuts off, eyes widening. "Wait, have you not jerked off since? It's been over a week!"

[Carver Amell]

"I, um... I wasn't quite sure.. uh... how," he admits, blushing. "I didn't-- I mean, I've been with J-- Him, but... it was... there were only a couple times I pleasured him instead of vice versa, and I used my mouth both times. I can't, um, reach. So I, I fiddled with it a little, but I kind of-- a-anyway, I got some a-advice earlier t-today, I should be-- um.."

[Bethany]

Beth clears her throat, looking to the side, then nods. "Well... if you... need advice or... even a, uh, hand..." Beth blushes a little. "It's a little weird and definitely not something you can tell other people but... I'd rather be a little weird and you know what you're doing. Just don't expect more than the basics or anything. Like I said when you propositioned Merrill and I, you're way too broad and rugged to be my type."

[Carver Amell]

Carver nods, then, smiling a little. "Th-thank you, Beth," he says quietly. "Can I-- can I tell you about one other time that sticks out to me?"

[Bethany]

"Sure, of course. And you can ask me anything. I mean, I'm not Zev or anything, but I think I was a pretty avid student of the passionate artes. I at least promise not to make shit up to make myself look wise or whatever."

[Carver Amell]

He nods, chewing at his lower lip as he thinks. "A few times, I... well, I wanted to repay the favor. Twice he let me p-put it in my m-mouth, but not for very l-long. I wasn't very g-good at it. He always turned it back to m-making me feel g-good. But... I kept asking, and he said... he said men are different than girls. They n-need different things. And he didn't want to frighten me. I was already going through a hard time, and... he wouldn't put it in me, he said that would be too far, not until we're married. But I kept asking and he gave me that b-book -- the book that got you in trouble. I read through it and there were... ropes and things involved. I asked him about that and he said that's the kind of thing men like. And I said, maybe we can t-try? If it would help? So he... He took me to his bedchamber, and he laid me down on the b-bed. And this time before he touched me, he tied my h-hands above my head, to the headboard. Then he took his time, stroking me, toying with me. Telling me I was his, that I shouldn't be afraid, that I was his pet and he l-loved me. That this was what he w-wanted, but if I was scared he'd stop. S-so I said I wasn't scared. And he p-pinched me, my nipple, and it hurt, but when I winced, he asked if he should stop so I said no, d-don't stop. And he said I was good, I was a good girl, and he kept petting me and pinching me, just a little, not r-really hard. He kept calling me his good girl, his little wife, his lady wife. S-stuff like that. I h-hated hearing that, being... knowing he thought of me as a g-girl. But I liked feeling good. And he put.. he put fingers inside me, two of them, and his th-thumb rubbed the, um, the good spot, and... it was nice. But he kept p-pinching me and I c-couldn't... I was t-trapped. My hands, you see. And... after, when it was done, he called me his brave girl, his good girl. He said I was so good, maybe we could do it again sometime. But... but... that was a few days before he... before we left home. And I... from the stuff in the book, it sounds like... it sounds like what men like is ropes and p-pain? Is that... now that I'm a man, should I be... should I want that stuff? Do I try that k-kind of thing with Merrill?"

[Bethany]

Despite herself, a part of Beth is glad that Carver at least never had penetrative sex. At least he was spared that much- I can't imagine how it would feel, having the memory of being... thatted, and being a guy. And then Carver keeps talking. And talking. And talking. Before he finishes, she's pacing. When he does finish, she takes a deep breath. "No. No you- that wasn't sex, exactly, that was- You see, that-"

 Another deep breath. "Sorry, i need a- I  just-" She holds up a finger, then steps out of the room, closing the door behind her. Which does not, however, stop him from hearing her blistering torrent of oaths and curses, many of them in languages he doesn't understand.

[Carver Amell]

Carver drops his face into his hands, shuddering a bit. I fucked up, he is aware, dimly. I said too much and I fucked up. Is it because of the rape? Is that why she's so upset? I shouldn't have said that, at the end. I shouldn't have-- but she said that wasn't sex. But, if that's not sex what is? I was naked and we were... and he made me feel good, and... I did it the way he wanted. That's closer to sex than anything. Sex has to be that but with penises, right? Doesn't it?