The Amell Legacy: Transgressions

[Bethany]

"I only meant to help, Carver, but I ended up hurting you and I'm really, really sorry. I'll be more careful in the future and not push to help to make myself feel better at your cost," Beth says softly, still smiling. "I worked on that for like an hour. You?"

[Carver Amell]

He blushes then, understanding, and nods. "I never meant to hurt you, and I know bringing that stuff up is really hurtful, so I won't do it again. But, what we did is sinful and wrong and it can't happen anymore. I love you, I will always love you, but that's no excuse to do what we did."

[Bethany]

Beth's smile falters and dims. "I... I know. I just... you finally had a problem I could help with, really help, and I just... I jumped in headfirst and didn't think about... most anything. Haliel even pointed out that I never actually, you know, asked... I... I betrayed your trust and-"

[Carver Amell]

He winces. "You didn't-- I didn't try to stop you, either. It was an accident. But, Beth, you don't understand how... I didn't understand how powerful... this thing, it's, it's got a mind of its own. And, it makes it really hard to think or do the right thing. I-- I suspect I'll learn how to deal with it, um, Roland said there're ways, but I need.. I can't... You can't just get naked like that in front of me. It, um, I don't know how to control myself very well yet. It never, I never felt this strongly, um... this much lust, before I had one."

By the time the poor boy finishes, he's bright red, glancing down at his hands instead of at her face.

[Bethany]

Beth frowns at the start but then slowly nods. "I... yeah, I suppose... I mean, I hate the whole 'my cock made me lose control and fuck her, it's not my fault' narrative some losers try and spin but in your case... I mean, suddenly cock is kind of... yeah. I could see needing some time. And... yeah, I'll, umm, make sure I don't..." She gestures vaguely. 

[Haliel Lightsong]

"Prod at his still untempered self-control?" Haliel offers from the side, making a mental note to discreetly mention this to Marian and Merrill. Just need to figure out how to put it so it doesn't give any hint that Carver abused anyone or, umm, did sex things with his twin.

[Carver Amell]

He nods. "...d'ya know, little stupid things keep coming over me. Like, should we be chaperoned if we're together? Because I'm a boy now? Is it wrong that we shared a bedroom as gi-- children? Or, or that you came into the bath with me? That won't be able to-- I mean, it would have been improper if you came and checked on me while I was bathing now, wouldn't it? And, and we won't ever be able to borrow each others' dresses again."

[Bethany]

Beth blinks a few times. "Umm, in reverse order, you can still wear dresses if you want, but yeah, our sizes are way off now. But we can still share hats? Maybe? Bathing... fuck it, once you have control of your new body, I don't see a problem with it- catfolk, elves and Toukami all have shared bath houses between strangers of different genders, so why not siblings of different genders? Bedroom... again, it's not uncommon for people without manors or mansions to have to have their kids share a room. Which leads to chaperone... no? Carver, we're not in Nyra anymore. We don't have to be prim and proper ladies anymore. Or you a prim and dapper gentleman for that matter."

[Carver Amell]

Carver makes an odd face then, halfway between stunned and scandalized. He sits back onto his heels, blinking, his mind churning rapidly. We're... not. Are we? We ran away. We're never going home. I could be anyone. I don't have to-- but what should I do? How do I...?

"I... I never thought of it like that," he says, his voice rough, husky. 

[Haliel Lightsong]

"Perhaps you should take some time to do so later," Haliel interjects before Beth can 'explain' her own opinion of it at length. 

[Bethany]

Beth winces, closing her mouth. Right, less bossy. Carver needs to make his own choices. Now at least. I still think I had to do things for him before but... maybe- no. Haliel is right that he needs to be able to make his own choices without me nudging him or he'll never learn. "Yeah, sounds like a good idea."

[Carver Amell]

"Yeah," he agrees, nodding. "I-- I'm probably-- I think I want to become an adventurer and marry Merrill and get a house someplace. But... I don't know how to go about doing that."

[Bethany]

Beth opens her mouth, then visibly pauses to think. "Okay... do you... do you mind talking that over? Not just with me- I only know stories about adventurers. Varric, Roland and..." She glances to the side.

[Haliel Lightsong]

"I don't have much experience but I'd be happy to talk- and learn- with Carver," Haliel agrees. "At the very least, I've very much enjoyed our sword lessons together and would happily continue them."

[Carver Amell]

He nods. "I just-- there's a lot of bad shit out there," he says, quietly, and there's something Beth's never really heard before in his voice: a subtle, quiet resolve, something in him that refuses to give in. "I want to be strong enough to save people from it. Mostly you and Merrill, but-- but there's probably a lot of people like Merrill out there, and they deserve to be saved too. And adventuring pays really well, so I'll be able to keep a nice house and Merrill can have luxuries and be safe."