The Midnight Prince

[Rokag]

"Why the fuck not?! What makes you think not fucking knowing is ANY BETTER?! You just get to fucking wonder whatever the fuck happened and if -" Rokag  turned her face away, visibly shaking. No...No, fuck not NOW! She could swear that she still smelt the smoke from when it happened. She shuddered as tears started flowing, despite her best efforts

[Shisou]

"...he died," she says quietly, after a moment. "I remember that much. He died."

[Rokag]

"I....wish I knew that much." She whispered, not trusting her voice not to crack. She was quiet again till she could control the tears. "H-how's your head? Still dizzy?" She couldn't talk about that. Not if she wanted to keep any amount of composure. She'd managed to not have one of THOSE nightmares so far.

[Shisou]

"Improving. Do you..." 

Whatever she was about to say, she drops. "Nevermind."

[Rokag]

"...sure." Rokag took a long breath. "Just...if you get dizzy again, you need an actual healer." She whipes her eyes. "Does anything else hurt?"

[Shisou]

"No," she says quietly. "Thank you."

[Rokag]

"I..." Damnit, we were fucking GETTING somewhere. "Can you...look. I'm not sure what's going to happen. Seiya...she said she and Tsuki are gonna be married off. Meaning eventually they're both going to be gone. And it's just gonna be the two of us. And...I was just...you don't stutter when you're like this unless you're hit in the head or we're fighting and I just wanna have some Fucking idea of what's going on....okay. Just...something I'm not guessing at or trying to figure out so I don't have to worry about getting killed or worse because I didn't figure out what it was.

[Shisou]

"I'm sorry," she says quietly. "I really, really don't remember. Even in my other form, I don't. I-- I know my father died. And I know I found his body. They suggested I might have seen what happened but I-- I can't th-th-think about it. I c-c-can't. It's..."

[Rokag]

Well...fucking SHIT! Rokag gave a long sigh, trying to keep herself from shuttering again. "Sorry...I...just thought I could figure somethinig of this out and...I guess you don't really know...at least not right now." Rokag also noticed that the stuttering was back as soon as she started thinking about her dad. "Is that...part of why you're doing this? Because of your dad?"

[Shisou]

"I-- n-n-no, I--"

She looks to Carbonne, who sighs. "I didn't pick you because of your dad, kid. I don't know your dad. But maybe what happened helped make you who you are, and I picked you because of who you are." 

[Rokag]

"I meant fighting here. Toukami is pretty fucking huge. You could have tried to fight anywhere..." She sighs. "Sorry, I didn't...I kinda figured you were a good person before I knew about this whole thing and..." Rokag sighs again. I want to trust him...her..Shisou. I shouldn't want to. I KNOW I shouldn't want to. But...  "I figured it was...kinda like how I stay here. In Toukami, I mean."

[Shisou]

"I can't leave-- Tsuki and Seiya and Kuronue are here," she says softly. "And you, now."

[Rokag]

Rokag smiled a little at the last part. "Even tho you know where I came from?"

[Shisou]

"I don't, actually," she says quietly. "Just that you appeared in the barn one day."

[Rokag]

"Oh....um..." Rokag took a deep breath. " I'm....not from one of the other islands. I actually....was born on the Shore. I'd... actually paddled a shell here and was trying to sleep off the exhaustion." She looked away from Shisou, not really sure what she might see, but not willing to risk a look of rejection. it's....I can still... probably run if I need to. some small part of her reminded.