The Amell Legacy: Transgressions

[Carver Amell]

"Um... something about me being fifteen?" he says, hesitantly. "But she's fifteen too..."

[NPCs]

"And how old is Jadan? Fifteen is plenty old enough to be having sex, long as yer safe and smart about it and such, but the other players in the game are important too."

[Carver Amell]

"th-thirty four? B-but, he's merikosi, so..."

[NPCs]

"So he's thirty-four," Roland finishes dryly. "More than double yerself. And... look, I don't mean to be cruel or nothing, but you're a bit behind in this sort of thing. Most boys hit puberty around ten or twelve. You had to wait until fifteen to do it proper-like. You have some catching up to do before any of that sort of thing is safe." He scratches his chin thoughtfully. "Come to think of it, Merrill's a bit of a match in that regard. Reason is different but she's behind her own self. Long as you both take it slow and ask for help and such, that's not a bad match, iffen I'm honest."

[Carver Amell]

"Is it... Is it really that bad? Wh-what he d-did to me? Beth keeps saying... but I liked it. I enjoyed it. Isn't that... isn't that right? What it's supposed to be?"

[NPCs]

Roland purses his lips, considering that. "You like chocolate? Some kind of candy? Bare with me on this."

[Carver Amell]

"Um, sure? Chocolate's good," he says, blinking in confusion.

[NPCs]

"But it can make you sick, even if it's tasty, right? Eat too much of it, eat only that, eat it if it's not made properly." Roland shrugs a little. "Just because you like something, doesn't mean it's good for you. Used to indulge in bloodbrush when I was younger and dumber. Felt great but it messed me up a fair bit. Took me years to get off the stuff."

[Carver Amell]

Carver shakes his head. "But... if I eat too much or bad chocolate I'll be sick. But I wasn't sick. I didn't... I liked it and it was nice and nothing bad happened. So why... why was it bad?"

[NPCs]

"Sometimes you don't notice the bad," Roland says after a moment. "Nothing happened afterwards that was bad? Again, I don't really know, wasn't there and such, so I'm just casting into the dark and praying."

[Carver Amell]

"I... he made me... he made me feel like a girl," whispers Carver. "And I loved it, feeling good, being wanted, but afterward I... it hurt more, later, realizing that he... that I was trapped, that he was always going to see me as a girl, that I wasn't going to... but, that wasn't his fault, that was this. Me. Being, um, being a boy."

[NPCs]

"Maybe so, but look at it from Beth's point of view- she didn't see you, uh, enjoying yourself, just the hurt afterwards. Of course she'd hate him! Can't say as I'm impressed with his perception at the least- he really should have noticed at least some of this and taken steps to help," Roland adds with a frown. 

[Carver Amell]

"But.. but he did," says Carver softly. "He said he... he loves me. He hates to see me so unhappy. So he wanted to b-bring me p-pleasure. He always focused on m-me, making sure I enjoyed myself. He was really nice about it."

[NPCs]

"That and a few copper will buy you dinner," Roland says dismissively, then sighs. "Sorry, that was cynical. Love and support do really help. But support can only help keep you treading water, doesn't sound like he tried to help you grow. Anyway, we're getting a bit off track, yeah? 

[Carver Amell]

Carver hesitates again. "It's just... All I know about s-sex I learned from him. So if he was wrong..."