The Amell Legacy: Transgressions

[Carver Amell]

"Why would it? Just because he likes me doesn't mean I have to... to like him back."

[Merrill]

"Noooo," Merrill admits slowly, nodding. "But... he's your friend. And my friend. And... you... we've all kind of had ssssex? T-together?"

[Carver Amell]

"I mean," he says, reddening. "That doesn't... count? Because-- because I only did it because you told me to?"

[Merrill]

"You didn't... Like it? I thou-" She pales suddenly, looking sick. "I-  I f-f-forced you?" She sounds horrified, the unspoken word very, very audible.

[Carver Amell]

"N-no, I, I liked it, just-- it just-- it doesn't c-count if you're doing it to make your girlfriend happy. It doesn't make you... that way."

[Merrill]

"You liked it," she repeats, tone half plea, half demand. The idea of doing that to anyone, much less Carver, of putting him through anything like what his sister went through, whatshe's aware but she was lucky to have avoided... 

[Carver Amell]

"It-- it felt good, and it made you happy, and-- yes. I liked it," he says, blushing. 

[Merrill]

Letting out a sigh of relief, Merrill nods a little. "Okay. I'm glad. Would you... want to do it again? But maybe... with me touching... too?"

[Carver Amell]

"I-- do you? And wh-why?"

[Merrill]

Merrill blushes furiously. "It was really... ummm. Watching was... really nice," she mumbles. "You were both so... into it." She shivers despite the warmth of the evening and her flushed cheeks.

[Carver Amell]

Carver reddens. "I-- I shouldn't. Do that again."

[Merrill]

"Why not?" Merrill asks honestly.

[Carver Amell]

"Because-- because-- guys like that, guys like Jass, are... girlier," he admits, mumbling. 

[Merrill]

Merrill looks at him, not getting it really. "Why does... ooooh. Because mostly it's girls that like boys so liking boys is girly?" Her nose wrinkles. "B-But... you're not really at all girly," she protests.

[Carver Amell]

He can't help it; eyes watering, he moves to press a kiss to her cheek. "Gods. I love you."