Tobys cabin

[Toby]

"And instead he's on a slab in the morgue.....he's dead Jamie. I'm proud of you for that."

[Jamie D'vart]

Jamie flinches. "I don't... want to be a killer," he whispers. 

[Toby]

"But you are." I say calmly "look Maybe I'm not the best role model in the world but I know how to handle killing someone with out falling to pieces.....I can teach you if you want....or we can shut the door on this and start over....."

[Jamie D'vart]

"How?" he croaks. "How do you do this?"

[Toby]

"I remind myself what they are. Terrorists, child molestere, black market hunters, abusers.... I remind myself that their scum, nothing but trash, I'm doing the world a service by cleaning them up. And to day you made the world a better place by getting rid of Steve. He turned your mother with out consent, he beat her, raped her, pimped he out, twisted her up until she gave you to him as an offering. He hurt her and so many others and you saved her and all the other drones from him. That's how I do it. I remind myself how shit they are and how much good their deaths do for the world."

[Jamie D'vart]

"But... but that's not all he is. He came to my play. He convinced his buddies to buy some of my paintings. He taught me how to play poker."

[Toby]

"And he would have beaten you, raped you, and droned you like your mother. Just because you can do nice things doesn't mean you're a nice person."

[Jamie D'vart]

"But..." he chokes. "But waht if I could have... what if I could have made him better?"

[Toby]

"You can't make people better Jamie.....you're a good person, you really are and I'm sorry you got matched with a bitter old bastard like me, but the fact is you can't change bastards like me and you sure as hell couldn't have fixed Steve."

[Jamie D'vart]

"People can get better... can't they?" he pleads, eyes shining. 

[Toby]

I sigh "some can but folks like Steve and I can't. I'm sorry Jamie but we really can't get better we can just control the urges we have. Steve didn't control himself and became a monster. I control myself and I'm a slightly different type of monster. I wish you could have had a mate that's gentle and sweet with Stacy eyes and all that romantic shit, but you got me. Once you can control your wolf if you want to leave forever I'll let you, but if you want to start over and stay, I'd really like that."

[Jamie D'vart]

Jamie looks at his lap. "Okay," he whispers. "I... I'm an adult now, right? can I drop out of school?"

[Toby]

"You can but you'll have to home school."

[Jamie D'vart]

"I'm sixteen," he points out. "I can legally drop out."

[Toby]

"You can, but one of the pack requirements is a high school deploma or equivalent you don't have to gather but you either need your deploma or a ged. Keeps young wolves out of truble. And it doesn't hurt to have a basic grasp of the world around you." Where are you going with this jame I womdser